I am currently reading one of the most amazing books I have ever read called "Kisses from Katie." In Uganda right now there is a 22 year old woman who is single and raising 14 adopted Ugandan children. Her name is Katie Davis and my new found hero. She was in her 12th grade year attending school in Tennessee when she asked her mom if she could have a trip to Uganda to volunteer in an orphanage over Christmas break. Her parents weren't to keen on the thought of going to be a missionary in another country. They wanted what was best for her; in their minds this was college. I am currently attending Bible School in a state away from my family and I can feel the bitterness they have toward me for not going to a secular university or even an accredited school. My internal response was always sarcastic and bitter in return, "It could be farther away, I wouldn't mind. It could be a different passion." The funny thing is for me it will be farther, and even though my passion never changed for long term missions I have grown in my desire towards shepherding young women, and possibly adopting children. For Katie her passion led her farther and deeper as well.
I have wanted to be in the missions aviation field for a while now (still trying to figure out how, where, WHY?). I know that God wouldn't give me a desire unless there was growing to be a blessing that leads from it though. As I continued to read my book and meditate on the statistics of children who are gowning out in pain, the ones who have never heard the gospel, the ones who have gone farther and deeper away from their families and any kind of hope for their future. I think of the parents who have to struggle with knowing they don't have the means to raise their families, the parents who would be good parents, and all the disease that they are prone to even in and among them while they are already dying from just lack of resources. I hate knowing that while I sit here in the laundry room at school someone else is sitting in filth. I hate knowing that while I have gotten the opportunity to attend Bible school for a year 2.5 billion people have never heard the Gospel, ever. This is absurd. I can't control my attraction to "Kisses from Katie" except that I for now, can live vicariously through her. Not really though, I can only pray that God continues to build my passion for souls.
A week ago I was reading this book and finally found myself at chapter 5, "Can I call you mommy?" is what it is titled. I cried knowing the title. as my eyes followed the words, I broke. I felt the love she had for just one child named Scovia who was 5 years old. Baby Scovia was Katie's first child and an inspiring start to a family that only God could weave together. I felt the burden that Katie felt as she continued to be blessed with children through the years as she writes. One of her Journal entry's said this, "I would like to proclaim that I always trust God's perfect plan for my life and I always turn everything over to God, knowing that His peace surpasses all understanding, but here's the truth of it: I freaked out. I said, "God if you ask me to be their mom, I wont do it. No." and then that didnt feel appreciative of someone who died for me, so I said, "Okay.".... then, I got into the word, and God said to me: ' It's okay to be human, I created you, I understand. Do not be afraid; do not be terrified. I am the Lord your God, and I will go with you where you go. (Deut. 31:6)" I meditated on her entry because it is truth. God calls us to "Go" and he promises us that he will never leave or forsake us. Her life is real. Maybe it's not politically correct in America, but whoever said we were right? our society proclaims a personal gratification Gospel and it's difficult to not get swept into the grinder. Through reading the Word, and growing in communion with the Lord we should be on fire giving up everything, settling for nothing less than glory for God, and crucifying ourselves daily. Yeah, we are also called to have a love for God that makes our love towards friends and family look like hate. Imagine that. Pray about our body of Christ and it's expansion, and pray for the souls of people you don't know yet, because they matter.
Convicted yet? I am.
Go read this book!!!
Hope and love in Him,
Krysta Hoskins
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